Parker Inspirations

What is a journey? A journey is finding things that you have never seen before. It is using those things to make your life more joyous and to gain wisdom. I started this journey in October 2018 and have discovered great things. As you have read you have seen that God’s word has been the most important part of this journey. Daily I learn new things about myself that need attention. I have gained a deeper prayer life, and yet I need to pray more. I have seen great insight to verses that I never saw before. Every day is a new journey, seeking God’s word, praying for those that I love, and just walking in the path the Lord gives me today.

One of the things I have learned about myself is that I fear people. I do not like confrontation however confrontations are going to come. It is how we handle them that makes us better or bitter.  This fear that I am talking about has crippled me in my relationships with people. One of the things that I hate is when someone says to me, “Well You think…” No one knows what I am thinking. But you see I have done the same things. I have reacted to how people act and assume of what they are thinking. I am guilty of the same thing they accuse me of. I guess you could say we are all guilty of assumptions most of the time.

I have learned that it does not matter what anyone else make think. I need to keep serving the Lord and let him take care of all the little things. Since I stopped looking around me and started looking within, I have had less fear of others. I have prayed more for them and just keep giving them to the Lord. All I can do is my best for the Lord and let him bless according to his will. None of us can control what others do, we can only take care of us. This has been mentioned several times throughout this journey. My favorite thing that I think about is the beam. I have to chip away my own beam before I can help someone else. My mother would say it this way, “Clean out from under your own doorstep, before you clean out from in under mine.”

One of the kid’s songs that goes with this journey is “It me O’ Lord”. My prayer is Lord Change Me. I am reminded of David’s own prayer in Psalms 51. He used these phrases:

• Blot out my transgressions
• Wash me
• Cleanse me
• Purge me
• Make me to hear
• Create in me a clean heart
• Renew a right spirit with in me
• Cast me not away
• Restore unto me
• Uphold me
• Deliver me

The operative word here is ME.

 “It’s me, it’s me, it’s me O’ Lord, standing in the need of Prayer. Not my brother, not my sister, but it is me O’ Lord standing in the need of prayer.”

Only when we see all that God sees in us, can we even begin to help someone else. We are nothing without God in control. When I look at someone else, I am putting myself in God’s place. I am just a sinner saved by grace. I do not have the right to look at someone else and say “well if they would just…” As human beings we take too much upon ourselves. Each of us have to have our own journey seeking to find what we have never seen before. That journey for the saved is digging deeper into God’s word and praying like David. Lord Change Me!