Parker Inspirations

Sometimes it is hard to tell if people are real or not. I try really hard to say and do exactly what I should. I want to be honest. It those times with others that I do not know if they are real or not. Especially, when they say one thing and do something else. The worst part of it is when I feel as though they are throwing me under the bus.

When I cannot follow through with helping someone, I let them know I cannot do so. I find that those same people do not do the same in reverse. Then they say I never said I would help you. It is my word against theirs. There are a few people who I am not sure by their actions if they are real or not. However, when the table is turned, they expect me to follow through. They are the first to say, “Just get over it”.  

It is those times that my confusion is very overwhelming. Those same people never apologize, are never in the wrong, and make me feel like I am not even apart of what is going on. The best way to explain those feelings is to say: I feel like Joseph in the bottom of the pit.

My only goal is to live my life to the best of my ability for God. It is so defeating when you feel like an ant being stepped on. Thankfully to God I am not insignificant. To God I am his child, a joint heir with Christ.

The human side of me finds it hard sometimes to hold on to that truth and not be overcome with hurt. I guess it hurts so much because I do not want them to feel the same way by my actions. I do not want to ever do something that would make someone feel small.

Matthew 7:12 KJV

Therefore all things whatsoever ye would that men should do to you, do ye even so to them: for this is the law and the prophets.

The para phrase to this is:

Do unto others as you would have them do unto you.